i hate having a regular or something that you sort of look forward to everyday
i always rely on it to make me happy so when it stops i just feel like crap
i fucking hate failure especially when you’re really close to success
it’s the fucking worst it’s pretty much why i just fuck off on school work
i get so fucking mad when i constantly work my ass off just for something small to get in the fucking way at the end
it just turns all the shit i went through into nothing
like i didn’t do shit
i just can’t handle working hard if nothing comes back
you’re supposed to get back as much as you fucking give right
so give me back everything i fucking worked for
once one things ruins my day im in a pretty shitty mood the rest of the day
if i do end up feeling somewhat better or more positive
or pretend to be so i dont feel all depressing
little things will annoy me much more easily than usual
idk i dont want to go deep into my emotions on here
idk why i made it then
like i do but im really bad at putting these things into words
i wish it was easy
not like anyone’s reading
i just want to be able to read through my owns thoughts
makes them organized
hm
